dog fly.

Do you ever worry about if something happened to an online friend of yours? Like they got hurt or *gulp*, killed (heaven forbid, knock on wood) or something, and all of a sudden, they stopped signing onto Skype? Or stopped blogging? Or videos stopped appearing in your subscription box? I mean… how would you know? There are some people who kind of come in pairs, who the other person would definitely inform online friends of whatever happened. Like, I’m sure if I died or something (again, heaven forbid) N-Dawg would tell my online friends. At least, I hope she would. But what about people like Zach? Who would tell me if Zach got into some kind of terrible accident? Or Ashley? Or Marina? This just kind of worries me sometimes. I feel so close to these people, but our communication replies solely of them signing into things. I mean, I guess, if I texted them or something? Would someone reply? I don’t know. It’s weird to think about. *one last giant knock on wood for safe measure*

Let’s see. What is going on in my life? Well. I’m still obsessed with Bananagrams. I still watch a lot of Jon & Kate Plus 8 during the day, and at night, even though I do more talking/game playing/movie watching at night. This is not an interesting paragraph. No one cares about this paragraph. Even I do not care about this paragraph. *sigh* I keep watching all of these old sexymac videos, and they are making me laugh. I don’t know why I sighed before saying that, that didn’t really make sense. But anyways, I love all of these old videos. Everyone’s. Even mine. There are some videos I have made that are actually kind of hilarious. Or maybe I just find it really hilarious when I get super excited/frustrated and start shrieking at the camera. I really wanna make a video. Maybe I’ll do that after I post this!

The song if the day is Weight of the World by Chantal Kreviazuk. Let me tell you why I love this song so much. First of all, Chantal’s voice is so very sweet and angelic and when it floats into my ears, it just makes me happy. But the real reason is that even though I’m just listening to it now, it kind of illustrates the way I was feeling earlier, after I took my sunset dog walk. I was feeling humdrum about some things, and I felt a little suffocated in my room, so even thought the sun was setting, I put my dog on my new (personal, all for myself, keep in my room!) leash and just fled. I don’t really know what it is, but there is just something to empowering about collecting an iPod and a bag and a woofie and just leaving. Barely saying goodbye before plugging in and just jetting off. It makes me feel in control when everything else seems so out of control. And back to the song, while I guess I didn’t feel the weight of the world on my shoulders, I was feeling, well, kind of flattened and constricted and sure enough, once I started to walk, I sort of felt it all slip away. And then the lyric, “I used to carry the weight of the world/and now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly” just sort of applied. I felt like flying. I really don’t know what it is, but I suddenly felt so giggly and free and like I wanted to… fly. As corny as that sounds.