dog fly.

Do you ever worry about if something happened to an online friend of yours? Like they got hurt or *gulp*, killed (heaven forbid, knock on wood) or something, and all of a sudden, they stopped signing onto Skype? Or stopped blogging? Or videos stopped appearing in your subscription box? I mean… how would you know? There are some people who kind of come in pairs, who the other person would definitely inform online friends of whatever happened. Like, I’m sure if I died or something (again, heaven forbid) N-Dawg would tell my online friends. At least, I hope she would. But what about people like Zach? Who would tell me if Zach got into some kind of terrible accident? Or Ashley? Or Marina? This just kind of worries me sometimes. I feel so close to these people, but our communication replies solely of them signing into things. I mean, I guess, if I texted them or something? Would someone reply? I don’t know. It’s weird to think about. *one last giant knock on wood for safe measure*

Let’s see. What is going on in my life? Well. I’m still obsessed with Bananagrams. I still watch a lot of Jon & Kate Plus 8 during the day, and at night, even though I do more talking/game playing/movie watching at night. This is not an interesting paragraph. No one cares about this paragraph. Even I do not care about this paragraph. *sigh* I keep watching all of these old sexymac videos, and they are making me laugh. I don’t know why I sighed before saying that, that didn’t really make sense. But anyways, I love all of these old videos. Everyone’s. Even mine. There are some videos I have made that are actually kind of hilarious. Or maybe I just find it really hilarious when I get super excited/frustrated and start shrieking at the camera. I really wanna make a video. Maybe I’ll do that after I post this!

The song if the day is Weight of the World by Chantal Kreviazuk. Let me tell you why I love this song so much. First of all, Chantal’s voice is so very sweet and angelic and when it floats into my ears, it just makes me happy. But the real reason is that even though I’m just listening to it now, it kind of illustrates the way I was feeling earlier, after I took my sunset dog walk. I was feeling humdrum about some things, and I felt a little suffocated in my room, so even thought the sun was setting, I put my dog on my new (personal, all for myself, keep in my room!) leash and just fled. I don’t really know what it is, but there is just something to empowering about collecting an iPod and a bag and a woofie and just leaving. Barely saying goodbye before plugging in and just jetting off. It makes me feel in control when everything else seems so out of control. And back to the song, while I guess I didn’t feel the weight of the world on my shoulders, I was feeling, well, kind of flattened and constricted and sure enough, once I started to walk, I sort of felt it all slip away. And then the lyric, “I used to carry the weight of the world/and now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly” just sort of applied. I felt like flying. I really don’t know what it is, but I suddenly felt so giggly and free and like I wanted to… fly. As corny as that sounds.

alligators on the floose.

I rarely use the “Add New Post” section of wordpress to actually write my blog. I usually use TextEdit throughout my evening to jot down paragraphs and quotes and ideas, and then finish it up in TextEdit. Then I move it over to Pages where it has a wordcount and see about how close I am. Then I read through, do a spell check, and copy and paste it over to wordpress to polish it off with some categories and tags and tile. The reason I’m telling you guys this is mostly because I am writing it in the “Add New Post” section today. Just for funsies, I guess. I know it sounds like a complicated and long-ass process, but I don’t know. It makes me feel like I’m doing something real and professional when I put all of that work into it, you know? How do you guys write your blogs, those of you who do? It doesn’t matter what website you use. =]

I’ve mentioned before how much I love projects, right? Internet-related ones, mostly, because I like doing projects that might benefit others (if that’s not way too cocky to say) and so the internet is a good place to start. Because my next project isn’t until April (BEDA 2.0, who’s going to do it again?), I wanted to do something else. I’m doing this thing in January where I have to comment on every video that comes into my subscription box. Which isn’t as hard as I thought, I just have to actually remember. But the reason I’m doing it is because I realized that I only comment on videos of people I’m actually friends with. Or people who will reply. Which is kind of dumb, actually, because it’s fun to comment. Even though, yeah, I’m not going to get a reply on a vlogbrothers video or something, it’s still fun to say, “Hank, dude, this video ruled. 5 gold stars!” I mean, yeah, maybe he won’t even read it, but if he does? It could make his day. You never know! So, it is really fun, actually. Except I kind of came into a problem today with my sexymacaroni video. I’m obviously subscribed to thesexymac, do I comment on my own video? I decided that replying to someone’s comment counted. …that counts, right? Screw that, it’s my thing, right?!

“It would be my honor… to be your new stepfather.” Sorry, guys. Okay, that actually reminds me of something. I kind of hate it that the kids who are considered “deep” in high school are the kids who post song lyrics as their Facebook status messages. Without quotations. Is it the mystique? That you don’t know if it’s their brilliance or they just know or listen to someone brilliant? It kind of gets under my skin. If you’re quoting someone, please use quotation marks. It’s just… it doesn’t make you any cooler, right? And it’s almost like you’re taking credit for someone else’s work, without the quotation marks. Is it just that the song is in your head? I know, the cure for that is posting it as a Facebook status. It just seems kind of fake to me, I guess. At least the other kids use their own words, right? I know that “bbl, homework” and “dogggg moneyyyy” aren’t the most intellectual of things to say, but come on, at least they’re being themselves. I don’t know, I really don’t mean to offend anyone who does this, but actually, wait. If you do that kind of thing, what’s your motivation? Sorry for that annoyance of the day, homiez.

Later, alligators! *rawr, snap!* …that was the sound of an alligator. Jealous, right?!

PS. I seriously meant to type “loose”, but it came out as “floose” and I thought it was nice. That’s the explanation. I know.

are you ready for awfulness?

I was getting a song off of my old computer today when I noticed something in my downloads folder. It was a video file entitled, “Friends 411”. It is a complete video, edited and everything, but it’s bad. Apparently last year I was a little punk rocker. I had bright red nail polish on and my hair was in my eyes under this beanie cap thing, and there was CLEAVAGE. If you know me in any capacity, then you will know that I am an extremely modest dresser. Apparently that only recently started. There are times when I lean over and you can see SHIZ. No one wants to see shiz. The thing that really bothers me about this video is that my hair is completely in my eyes the entire time. I don’t know why I thought it was cool or sexy in any way, but it wasn’t. It was distracting and gross and just awful.

Sometimes, when I post pictures from my past, I feel like people stop reading because it isn’t current, it isn’t right now.
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Okay, well, its the very next day and I abandoned that entry for my algebra book. We made out and it was really hot.
No, it was not very hot. It was awful.

Is it considered cheating if you wriggle your limbs around and pull on your skin so that you can lick your elbow?