I blogged tonight. But it wasn’t on here, on this blog, on Funny Bursts of Creativity. I’ve discussed this before, but I just find it really hard to blog on this particular blog. Even though I’ve had it for a year and a half and it’s been through BEDA and 2 BEDJs and it’s seen the good and the bad and the ugly and all that, it just feels too different to write in here anymore. Times change and people change and blogs should be able to change with the person, but I just can’t do it. I don’t know why, but I’m tired of fighting it. I’m just tired.
It’s hard to know where I’m getting at, even late at night when everyone is in bed and my thoughts can finally formulate themselves into something legible to others, and even I don’t know a lot of the time. But it felt so wonderful to take all of these thoughts I’ve been having tonight, and put them into physical sentences, paragraphs, a piece of writing unique to anything I have ever written before. Which is something I haven’t been able to do lately, for whatever reason. I guess it’s because I feel so different lately, so different from that person associated with this blog. And I’ve been so hesitant in starting a new one because of the memories it carries, the people who read but don’t comment, even the number of views. But now that I’m thinking about it, it’s not going anywhere. I’m not deleting it.
It’s time to move on. When something isn’t helping me anymore, why stick with it because it’s familiar? I need not be a hypocrite and take my own advice in all parts of my life. So here’s to moving on!
If you wish to continue to read my crazy ramblings and twisted insights into life, take a travel over to http://www.boobjob12.blogspot.com? Oh yeah, that’s right, I’m going to try Blogger for a bit (or, er, again). An all-new M with an all-new blogging website to boot. Hellz yeah!
PS. Once having transferred this post from TextEdit to actual wordpress, posting this is kind of… sad. It’s like I’m ending this huge part of my life. But then again, I’m starting something all new too. So it all works out in the end. I’m happy. I swear.
goodbye BEDJ 2010.
Whew, I made it. I made it to the last day of BEDJ without cheating or forgetting a day or kicking any walls. And while I’ll be glad to have more freedom at night, I’ll miss the force of BEDJ to write. I’m sure I’ll do it next year, because it really is fun most of the time, and I’ve found you grow closer with those who read/comment and that’s such a happy feeling, and I’m looking forward to next year. Thank you to anyone who has read or commented during this whole thing, I really so appreciate it. 🙂
I’m writing this at 1:28pm, which I’m pretty sure is the earliest I have ever done BEDJ during this entire month. But this is becasue I am leaving my house at 6 or so to sleep over at my freinds house and in the morning… camping! I have all of my stuff packed up, minus a few odds and ends to pick up at my dad’s house later. I have my pillow and comforter and jammies and clothes and shoes and towels and toiletries and all of the little things you wouldn’t think of needing. Like a towel. I so would have forgotten that if my friend hadn’t told me to bring one. But my list is incredibly awesome, printed out from the computer and crossed off all over with red sharpie, and I have it all planned out down to what I’m wearing today and tomorrow and sdfkdfgrandomletterssnds I am really freaking excited.
I’ve never been camping before, so I have no idea what the experience is going to be like. We’re bringing our bikes and I’m bringing my high tops because I don’t have boots and we’re going to go on nature walks and sit by the water and read and draw and they bought so many snacks and sodas for the occasion and I’m bringing bananagrams and… eek. Oh, and I’m not sure if I’ve ever addressed this before, but my friend (the one I’m camping with) and I are basically on the same brainwave and we have what I’m pretty sure is about three million inside jokes, so playing taboo is the easiest and most fun thing in the whole world for us. We partner up and go against her mom and her mom’s boyfriend and totally school them. And they’re bringing it and we will own. Mark my words. And when I get back, I’ll be sure to blog all about the experience. M vs. Nature… who will win?! Mwuahaha.
I really want a pair of slippers for my dad’s house. And not those big fuzzy ones, because I have like six pairs of those at my mom’s and they always fall off my feet. I want a pair that is like hard on the bottom and looks like a clog and has fuzzy insides, just so I can put on my jammies and pad around the house, feeling ultra cool. I think I’ll ask for a pair for my birthday. In November, I’m going to be 17. That’s really crazy, because 17 is… old. Almost an adult. I do not feel like I’m almost an adult. That is basically insane. I mean, I don’t really feel like a kid, but I feel… maybe 15 or something. I don’t feel like an almost adult , who should drive and have a job and go to college and eventually graduate and marry and have babies and it’s just weird. I don’t know, maybe I’m crazy for thinking that.
Well, this is it. The end of BEDJ. The last song of the day. The last time I’ll hit the publish/schedule button in July. Crazy shiz, yo. Here’s to another full month of summer! *cheers* The song of the day is the Levan Polkka. Just… click this.
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